then maybe I will bump into the girl
I was before you loved me.
Maybe I can convince her to
go a different way. "
my head is going fucking crazy no amount of the dozens of drugs i own is going to help me and i just want to fucking break you in half and stab myself and everything in between
He says he loves me more than anyone.
But what does that even mean.
He treats me worse than his sworn enemies.
Is less kind to me than he is strangers.
Offers me less time and less commitment than his job.
What does it mean to love me more than anything?
Does it mean I get all the pent up rage, fear, insecurity.
Do I become your punching bag.
Because it seems that when I’m breaking down,
you’re no where to be found.
But the no matter what you do I’ve always been around,
to clean you up to bandage your wounds.
Then you disappear again.
To grace the rest with your presence,
You claim you love me more,
but I just think you love that I love you.
And you’ve found the one who won’t go away
no matter how truly badly and terribly you’ve hurt them.
But when I feel myself slowly inching near, hoping maybe
you’ll touch me face and soften yourself to me.
You push me aside and say I’m getting too close.
You need your space.
You can’t deal with my heartache right now.
How dare I ask for your love.
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